August 6, 1985
There are so many ways God shows His love. Sometimes God’s love is shown to us in the people we live with. And sometimes it is shown through a song or in something we see. I remember once when I was sitting at the table at home with both of my parents. We were watching a movie about a flying elephant. My brother was there, too. A happy feeling had settled within me. We were all together watching the movie on a small T.V. in the kitchen. I remember thinking the movie was very sad. In it, the elephant’s mother was comforting him.
I’m really sad, too. I want Mommy to make me feel better.
I cried harder, feeling the emotion the character on T.V. was going through. Then I heard a whisper, jerking me from the movie.
“Look, she’s crying,” my mother said so quietly I almost didn’t hear her.
I turned, and both of my parents were staring at me. Immediately, I stopped crying, wiped my eyes and forced myself back into reality. I wouldn’t cry in front of them. I had to mask my pain so no one would find out the truth.
Love will bring pain to light. The hope of pain ending will anchor the soul. Deep inside, if you feel God’s love, it will give you hope that someday everything in life will work out for the best.
Title: Breaking the Silence
Author: Diamante Lavendar
Genre: Women’s Fiction
Based on a true story, a new novel from Diamante Lavendar. Joan Eastman was born like any other girl. However her life would prove to be a life of great pain… Growing up, she was treated differently by family members, powerless to defend herself against their sexual and psychological abuse. Feeling she had been dealt a wicked hand by the “powers that be”, she spiraled into substance abuse and troubled relationships. She became a victim of addiction and self-hatred. Not giving up, she becomes aware of a greater spiritual being that protects her and she begins to heal. Then she finds herself pregnant. She learns to understand nothing is hopeless; that with a changed view and self discovery, there is real hope in every situation, no matter how difficult. As she and her husband look forward to the birth of their child, she writes in her diary as a way of expelling all of the evil memories. On bed rest for the duration of her pregnancy, she endures tests and tribulations that at first she couldn’t begin to understand. But no matter how high the hurdles in Joan’s life are, she doesn’t look back, and pulls the pieces of her life together…for herself and her unborn child. This inspirational story speaks of Joan’s gradual self acceptance and healing of her body, mind and spirit. It speaks of the possibilities of the future and the fulfillment of the dream of love and family. And it speaks of jumping the hurdles in life without looking back, no matter how high those hurdles may be
Diamante Lavendar has been in love with reading since she was a child. She spent many hours listening to her mother read to her when she was young. As she grew older, she enjoyed reading novels of all genres: horror, fantasy and some romance to name a few.
She began writing in college and published some poetry in anthologies over the years. After her kids were older, she wrote as a form of self expression and decided she wanted to share her stories with others.
Most of her writing is very personal and stems from her own experiences and those of her family and friends. She writes to encourage hope and possibility to those who read her stories.
Diamante believes that everyone should try to leave their own positive mark in the world, to make it a better place for all. Writing is the way that she is attempting to leave her mark—one story at a time.
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